And here I lay in my bed. Listening to Chromeo, Casey next to me snoozing away (the way those crazy cats do), an empty coffee cup on my night stand void of the macadamia flavored coffee I practically inhaled because it’s just one of those days.
To reference and relate to all of the gamers out there I wanted to share a quote. Sadly I can’t remember where I read it so if anyone knows please let me know.
It went something like: “Anytime life gets harder it means you’ve leveled up.”
The last time I was super optimistic about an upcoming year I was preparing for 2009. I can remember waking up that new year’s day and feeling this strange sense of change. I just knew that something was going to change my life that year. I was right. It was unexpected and random and next thing I knew I was applying for the Disney College Program in February just two months into the new year. What happened throughout the rest of 2009 proved my suspicions to be correct. I had experienced the best year of my life thus far.
Sadly, no year since has been able to top it. I’m satisfied with this year. Content. 2012 gave me new experiences, new friends, and so many new memories…
January - I took two classes during J-Term that I truly benefited from. I had hardly any time off during Winter Break but I got some extra credits out of the way. Liz and I goofed off as always and one of my best friends Melinde turned 21…finally!
February - The shortest month always feels like it’s the fastest. I remember nothing. I did get this totally awesome iPhone accessory called the Ōllo Clip. Three lenses in one including a fish eye lens (seen below), macro lens, and wide angle. It’s pretty cool. Oh yeah! Liz and I book a trip back to Disney! The countdown to July begins.
March - School has taken over my life. I enrolled in a class called Music Journalism with the almighty Althea Legaspi of the Chicago Tribune and MTV Buzzworthy. She’s tough. One of our assignments was to cover a live show. I covered Here Come the Mummies at Mojoe’s and learned that music journalism was not for me. Candice and I celebrated our Pretty Little Liars obsession during “A Day”. Work celebrated the team with an amazing party at the Pleasant Home Foundation.
April - Melinde adopts Eli. Don’t let his size fool you, he’s a baby (pictured below). Looking at him now it’s insane to see how much he’s grown. Did I mention he’s a Great Dane? Yeah, they get pretty big. Candice and I enjoy a Say Anything concert with our friend Steve and meet Adam Siska, former Academy Is… bass player and new member of the band.
May - The semester ends. I lazy around with my cats. Take in a William Beckett show with Christina and Meghan and yes, that’s Snoop Dogg throwing out the first pitch at a White Sox game.
June - Christina celebrates a birthday and our old friend John Wool and I plan the perfect surprise. He flew out to Chicago with a friend to surprise her and we take her to the Cubs/Red Sox game.
July - DISNEY! DISNEY! DISNEY! For full recap see this post. Also see this video.
August - Lollapalooza is a time honored tradition for Christina and I. We reunited with our new friends we made the year prior and made new friends. The weekend proved that some friendships don’t last, some before they even begin. My babyboy moves to St. Louis and I miss him dearly.
September - Three of my former Disney roommates flew themselves out to Chicago to help me celebrate my birthday! It was an amazing and unforgettable weekend. I’m so thankful that they came. Amidst the celebrations and start of a new semester I lost a very good friend of mine and miss him every day. I hope I’m making him proud in my attempt to find happiness and living my life with no regrets.
October - My new friends and I have regular nights at a local bar in the city. Throughout the stressful semester it was a breath of fresh air to wash away our tiring classes with cheap beer and conversation.
November - My friends and I work nights out at George’s Lounge into our after school schedule. We frequent the place every other week and become very close with the bartender Carrie. Christina and I see fun. in concert and I cry at how amazing it is.
December - Never did I imagine that in 2012 I would be able to see my roommate from China three times in one year. She came to spend Christmas with my family and it was by far the best Christmas of my life.
So here we are on New Year’s Eve. I’ll be spending it with some dear friends and darling co-workers. I look forward to 2013. I feel its going to be a great one. I’m so excited.
Happy New Year everyone!
This. This is me.
(via dirtylittlestylewhoree)
New love. Evan Peters of American Horror Story. *swoon*
(via dirtylittlestylewhoree)
Today Michael and I went to Half Price Books and met these two people who were totally awesome and we just started talking about old records and cassette tapes and Barbara Streisand and then one of them finds the Original Broadway Cast of Funny Girl on vinyl and I get so excited I hug him and now they’re coming to Houlihan’s with us next week.
Talking about health issues with my dad is infuriating. Especially because my father thinks he’s a doctor, which he’s not. Writers are not doctors. I want to bang my head against the wall.
I’m trying to find a gif of Vanessa Bayer as Miley Cyrus going “Daaaaaaaaaaad” but it’s just not working.
Feel better my baby angel!
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…about how all of the things are building up to a boiling point. And how I am literally on my last thread of sanity.
In 4 weeks time, I will be (hopefully) done with college, forever. Projects, papers, deadlines, and interviews galore. I have hardly any time for myself. It’s suffocating to say the least. (As I sit here in bed concentrating way too hard on my breathing and therefore heightening my anxiety level). I completely understand why it’s worse now than it was before. This is essentially it for me.
Let’s touch a bit on work. The holidays and retail are about as crazy as a cat walking around with a bag on it’s head. (See Maru) As every year goes by the holidays creep closer and closer. Tensions build and traffic increases. I don’t recommend working too often when trying your best to finish school. You’ll end up feeling as I do right now.
It’s all of this that has really made me realize how truly unhappy I feel. With the constant discussions my friend Liz and I have about our futures I just want the future to be here already. Does anyone else feel the way I do? It’s something so important and essentially life changing and I just want to skip all of the bull and get to it already.
This is how I feel. Thanks for listening.
This.
(Source: fuckyeahquotestosavealife, via jacvanek)